Resolved Question: I need life advice. Any one. Please and Thank you.?

Ever since I was 17 I have had on off experience with work. First job I had I was forced to resign due to too few hours and the 30 min commute that was costing me more than I made. Second job was for great pay doing literally nothing. I took it for granted and was asked to resign. It was a hospital. I got sick. They told me to stay home. I listened. Didn’t go well. Third job was at a pizza place. Hired as a pizza cook from my small college experience. I got the flu and called to ask if they needed me. They said no and layed me off with in the first week. I learned my lesson. Get sick? Go to work no matter what. Show effort. I am 20 years old now. After a horrible depression that I have been keeping to myself for the past 5 months I finally landed a decent job. I started at the beginning of this month. It was a mom and pop kind of place that sold transmissions. Like always I got sick with in the first couple weeks but I pulled myself through. Could not take losing another job. My best friend is away for boot. He is more of a sibling to me than my own sister. He wrote me saying how proud he was. He isn’t the kind of dude to say that sort of thing unless he really means it. My boss who I respected called me into his office at the end of my work day. “Nothing personal”, he said. “It’s all business but we are going to have to let you go”. “You wrote down a wrong serial number once which made us have to open a box to change it.” This was the most hard working, stressful job I have every had. I put my heart into it. For myself and the ones rooting for me. Now it’s new years. Starting off 2011 a loser again. Girls like and want to go out with me but I feel too ashamed to go further. I don’t know how my best friend will take the news. I’m scared of everything. I know I can succeed but somehow I trip over myself and wind up falling down. I’ve pulled myself up so many times. I don’t know if I can again. Funny, because I’m Atheist yet I’m afraid of what happens when I die. Meaning I have contemplated suicide many times. I want kids. I want a wife. I want to be happy but at this point I don’t know what to do. My buddy called me on my way home from being fired to ask if I was interested in a position at his job. He’s well respected there and would do his all to get me in. It’s closer to my home and higher pay. I’m used to getting my hopes up for similar opportunities so I try not to think about it. Yes, it would be truly wonderful if everything worked out but that doesn’t seem to be the case with me. I really am trying to keep my head up. Maybe I should shave my goatee so I have less weight holding my head down. That was a joke. I hope you laughed. Any advice is appreciated. Some times the best advice is from a total stranger. Thank you